Saturday, January 31, 2015

The Waiting Game

One month into the new year and God has given us lots to think about.  Trying to stay positive through it all has been HARD!!!

We have found ourselves at a fork in the road and desperately wanting to choose the right path.  One path will bring immediate change and one path will bring immediate unhappiness but possibly some hope down the way.  It may seem like this is a very easy decision, but it has been extremely tough.  We are still unsure what to do, which path to take.

I've been spending a lot of time in prayer, doing some reflecting, and listening to some worship music.  I'm hoping to receive a clear answer from God, but still can't hear it.  It's during these times when it seems God is the quietest, is when I also know He is simply telling me to just be patient.  He will give us an answer when it's just the right time.

We have also had lots to consider regarding careers, people in our lives, various frustrations, and what's best for our kids in different areas of their lives.  Sometimes being an adult is no fun at all!  But Craig and I had a very long conversation recently and I actually felt some peace at the end of it.  Eventually, things will all work out just as they should.

Not everything has been terrible for us.  We have certainly had some great moments and we've enjoyed every second of it.  We're going to try even harder to stay positive through this waiting game and completely trust what God is about to do.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

The Year of Positivity

Positivity.   Merriam-Webster's dictionary defines positivity as the quality or state of being positive; something that is positive.  2015 is the Year of Positivity for the Kelley's.

I pray at the end of each year for God to give us a word to live by for the following year.  We've had the Year of Hope, Year of Family, Year of Lessons.  It's amazing how God reveals everything that goes along with that word throughout the year.  He truly never fails us.

As I was praying for 2015, and positivity kept coming to me, I did not want to accept it at first.  Surely, I was a more positive person in 2014.  And there has to be a better word for this new year.  But, God kept speaking to me and this was the word I kept hearing.

Everyone has room for improvement on their attitudes and feelings towards events in our lives.  Even though I felt I had a better attitude in 2014, there were still times I let the negativity creep in.  When I would let it creep in, so would the bitterness and anger and all those feelings that nobody likes to feel.  I really did not want to be the type of person that heard someone's name and immediately had a sour taste in my mouth.

This year, I am ready for all of that to change.  I want to find the good in ALL situations and see the glass half full.  I want to embrace each day and truly live in the moment.  I am going to take the time to stop and enjoy life before it all passes me by.  

I want to fully accept the person that I am and not ever conform or change just to please other people.  Other people's negative thoughts and feelings towards me will no longer affect who I am.  Nobody else is living my life and I only have to be pleasing to God.

I am human, so there will be days that are difficult and will be hard to stay positive.  But that is when I will have to pray harder and truly trust that God will give me peace.  With that being said, it's time to say good-bye to relationships, situations, and anything else that is not beneficial and uplifting for me and/or my family.

So, I look forward to a better, more positive year.  I will make new goals, accept new challenges, and take time to appreciate everything God has given me.